Quirk

Have you ever done something strange for no apparent reason?

I told my boss that I'd have this table of comparisons between what some pipeline was saying to a company vs. what the company was getting by noon today. I'd put this together in a few forms in the past few days, but every time he was looking for something a little bit more. So I just went all out on it, headed down to the Airport at 2pm yesterday, went around back of it to the Air Cargo area, which nobody ever sees, and got to work in the Fuel Farm for the account I'm working on. I had to leave at 5pm because I had other things to do, but I came back at 2am and worked until around 8:30am straight through. I not only gave him this table, but also identified the trends, in the data and possible next steps.

Why did I do all that? Now I'm just tired and I have to get to work for the rest of the day still.

My dad was in town yesterday, he took me and Dan out to dinner and we talked for a long while. I dunno why exactly, but I'm not too psyched about the wedding this weekend. It's not that I'm not happy for my big bro and Coley, more that I just have a hell of a lot going on right now in every aspect of life except for the aspect where I actually do things.

I don't feel like I'm doing much with life right now. I'm just waiting. I hate that feeling. I don't want to wait but I don't know where to go or what to do. I'm waiting for Dunia to get back, I'm waiting for a paycheck, I'm waiting for equipment at work, I'm waiting for someone to get back to me in my game, I'm waiting for the weekend, I'm waiting for a chance to sleep, I'm waiting for a chance to impress, etc.... I'm waiting for life, so by association, I'm waiting for death.

Work is fine, it's interesting and it's not boring when I have something to do, but I'm not living to work. I need something better than work to do. Not healthy to have nothing else. Moo I say. I need life sustenance.